Sorry I haven’t blogged in a while. The college year will be over soon! I’ll be back then.

July 3rd.

Hey!
I’ve had quite an uneventful past few days really but, since it is half term in the UK right now, I’ve had a lot of time to sit and think about where I would like my life to go in the future. I recently decided that I actually need to get involved in some kind of extra-curricular activity (like an out of college acting class or musical theatre class or something) because the things that we have been doing at college are not enough. I want more than just going to college and coming home and doing nothing. The thing is, I have the opportunity to join so many classes (there are a wide range around here) but I just never go for them. I guess I’m just scared really. My friends know me as the person without any inhibitions and the one who will do anything but I have come to realise that, whilst I am not scared of it and can take it, I hate the thought of someone else in the class criticising me or taking the piss out of me. I know it’s what I should expect wanting something more out of performing arts but the thought of someone else in the class who is no better nor worse than me visibly laughing or talking about me whilst I perform, is terrifying. I mean, I’ve been in auditions before where everyone else knows someone there and you know nobody and you get up in to the space in the small groups but in that situation any judgement from the other candidates was virtually none existant because everyone else was in the same boat and everyone was being judged by the panel. Being the only person in the room who knows nobody is the worst thing ever. I guess I should be used to it since from the day that I walked into my AS English Language class in September, knowing nobody; to the day I finished the course at the end of May this year; I never had a casual conversation with anybody in that class. Everyone there knew someone apart from me and they were all too up themselves to talk to me. I know that it was for the best though since, whilst everyone had friends, I was the one listening to the teacher when he was speaking and everyone else was having their conversations. Meh, I’ll still probably come out with the worst grade there. I think I bombed the exam so much.
So – to link this post back to the title – my life is going nowhere at the moment. I need it to pick up and for something to happen. I have the confidence but maybe my fear of being laughed at (even if I’m not bad – it always happens) is just greater than my confidence to perform. Hopefully it’s something that I will work on at college.

Welcome to the re-opening of Alrightinthedark.info. I have decided that this time, it will just be a blogging site with no graphics or tutorials. Since I closed the site probably in february or march, I have tried blogging sites such as Livejournal, Blogspot, Blogger and Tumblr but none of them really helped me to express myself in the ways that I wanted to so I decided that coming back here would be a good thing to do to be able to write the things that I want; quickly and easily.
Well! A lot has happened since I last blogged. The last time you read anything on here (if anything), I was still studying and going to my English Language lessons and now(!) I am not! I have finished my English Language lessons and have completed my exam. Whether I did well in the exam or not is something else! I know that I didn’t work to my full potential and I really didn’t revise and practice my english skills as often as I could have so now I don’t know what the outcome of the exam is going to be. I have decided that next year at college in A2, I wont be doing English. I’ve had quite enough of english now. I’ve done it for the past 12 years at school and now I have had enough so now I will just be finishing up my first year of my BTEC in Performing Arts and then picking up an AS subject in my second year.
I’ve had my unlimited cinema pass since January now and I think I’ve been to about 15 movies in 5 months. I’m pretty disappointed by that, actually, because I thought that I would use the pass more often (and believe me, I planned to) but it seems that my friends either never want to go or feel like they should go and not invite me. I think that’s why I haven’t been going very often. I am, however, on track to get my monies worth at the end of the year. I would only have to see 35 movies in 12 months to make it worth my money so I am going to work on getting those 35 movies watched and hopefully some more to make it actually seem like an unlimited pass!!
Now, I feel like I should get on and do something productive right now. Maybe I’ll start thinking about the next design for this site. I always seem to go for the easy, simple designs but it took me a while to think of this one but I think it’s just simple enough for a blogging site.

I hope you all enjoy reading this and will hopefully come back soon and read my next blog when it is ready. Please add me on all of my S/N profiles so you can have live updates of when I update the site straight away!